Am i an exhibitionist? or a narcisist-nudist who is just proud of his body?
im 20 yrs old, gay, oriental-asian descent, 5'10, slim-muscular, and smooth and white-skin. I'm proud of my body and whenever i feel good about it, i get the urge to show it off- whether to men or women. I love swimming in speedo trunks cos it feels almost nude, i love showering in commmon showers cos it feels so good to be naked and not care. I like it when people see my thing though i dont expose it in a vulgar way like what others do, i try to show it in away that will seem i'm not showing off, like not locking d door, etc. whenvr my parents r not around, i walk in the hse in boxers so our maids and driver can see my body and if i lift my legs they'll see my thing. i have this fantasy of being watched while pleasring myslef while it appears like i dnt knw im being watched. i like it when people find me sexy and try to invade my privacy. i love it when even str8 guys will look jst bcos of curiosity, is there somthing wrng with me? am i an exbtionst? or a proud-nudist? tnx
You are definately NOT a nudist....sorry.
I'm a nudist, been one for 13 years, never in my 13 years have I had the urges you are describing.
Nudism is not about showing off, it's not about showing at all. It is simply about enjoying life outside of your clothes and nobody has to be around for that freedom to exist. It requires no audience and wants no audience.
Exhibitionism....that is when you gain some kind of pleasure center benefit from forcing others to see you. Usually it is from a deep seeded insecurity. It is a sexual pursuit, and sexually I guess it's a deviation from the norm, but what's the norm anyways? Maybe you are gay, maybe you are an exhibitionist, who cares. What really matters is whether you can seperate your fiction from your reality and whether you respect people enough to not invade their visual space and force your world's fantasy into their world's reality. To do so is VERY unfair. And that is when your simple deviation from the norm becomes "deviant behavior"....and deviant behavior is punishable by law.
So...enjoy your fantasies....but be VERY VERY careful how you choose to act on them and with whom. Or you might be playing out those fantasies with a bar of soap in a prison shower.